it's only just begun

it's 12:03 am...and i probably should've gone to bed a few hours ago.

but do you ever have those nights where there's so much and you feel like you have something to say, but you just aren't sure how? so you sit in front of a blank piece of paper, just wishing that it would write itself out somehow?

yep. pretty much where i'm at. so...here goes.

life these past few days have been so...blissful.

no, i'm not dating. but i have been rejoicing with some dear friends of mine who are getting married soon and we're talking about how their man proposed and what color the dresses will be and what kind of flowers she'll be holding and where the wedding will be and how she has to taste test the food and how invitations are coming out soon and how she picked out a photographer...and the list joyfully goes on and on.

but more than anything...Jesus has been sweeping me off my feet...and i love it. it's like we're dancing and He's spinning me around and covering me with little things that He knows i like, just because. and He's smiling at me and just looking at me with eyes full of love...and desire...and passion. and He's saying, "Arise, My darling, My Beautiful One, and come with Me." (Song of Songs 2:10)

how can you resist an invitation like that? seriously?

and i've just been finding His call irresistible. it's like He has a secret just for me...and He wants to share it with me. but the only way i can receive it is by answering His call with "Yes, Lord...I am coming!" (Psalm 27:8)

it's like He's taking me past all the familiar places...comfortable as they may be...and taking me higher, deeper and farther into His love. yes. that's where He's taking me.

He's taking me into His heart.

He's showing me how it beats. how it loves. how it sees. how it listens. how it touches. how it LIVES.

He is showing me that He is the treasure of the universe. when i have Him, i have everything.

this is what i was created for. a divine romance with Jesus. i was created to delight in Him and find my joy...my everything...in the fullness of who He is.

everything i could ever need, HE IS.

He is the Bread of Life.
He is the Living Water.
He is Comfort.
He is the Prince of Peace.
He is TRUTH.
He is LIFE.
He is the WAY.
He is my Provider.
He is my Sustainer.
He is my Strength.
He is my Shield.
He is my Glory.
He is the Lifter of my head.
He is the Keeper of my heart.
He is the One who holds all things together.
He is the One who will never leave nor forsake me.
He is the One who delights in me.
He is the One who sings songs over me.
He is the One who holds me close to His heart.
He is Love.
He is Joy.
He is Light.
He is More than enough.
He is Tender.
He is Patient.
He is Kind.
He is Gentle.
He is Firm.
He is Beautiful.
He is Holy.
He is Righteousness.
He is Justice.
He is the One who became sin...to become my Righteousness.
He is God.
He is the Lover of my soul.

what more could i ask for?

how amazing that I am His...and HE IS MINE??

sometimes i wonder if it's even real, this love. and then He paints a sunset in the sky, with the clouds wisping across the expanse and whispers, "Do you see that? I painted that just for you. Let's sit and enjoy it....just you and Me."

ok...can you get any more romantic than that?!

and honestly...how tender He is with my heart. there are no words. sometimes it's breaking...sometimes it's crying...sometimes it's laughing...sometimes it's just not sure what it is. but the one thing that is sure and constant are the Hands that hold it. so gentle. so careful. so. tender. He never forces Himself, but He is always close.

and all it takes for Him to come near is for Him to hear His name: JESUS.

oh, the many times i have called out His name. and every time...EVERY TIME, BELOVED...He has come close.

this beautiful, divine romance? it's for real. it's living, breathing for real.

it's so much more than i could have ever imagined.

and it's only just begun.