so, saturday night i was with my friend liz. she was dancing around and i was having some Jesus time. i was watching a documentary about New Zealand and Colombia on a website called "Come&Live". these musicians go around on tours to these places and instead of just going to perform, they also walk the streets of these countries and pray for people on the streets, in restaurants, stores, airports, wherever...and just love on people. i was so encouraged. it's really not that hard to ask someone if they need prayer...especially if they tell you that something hurts or they feel sick. and i was really challenged by it and prayed for an opportunity.
well, not 5 minutes after i prayed, liz comes up to me and says she has to go somewhere. as she's getting her boots on, she tells me that her hip hurts real bad...she did something to it while she was dancing. i ask her if i can pray for it. she says sure. i prayed and asked God to heal it and make it whole. after i was done, i asked her how it felt. she said it still felt the same. i was kinda disappointed, ya know? but i kept praying about it throughout the rest of the night.
i forgot about it sunday...but tonight i remembered and i asked her about it.
me: how does your hip feel?
liz: great! it doesn't hurt at all! sunday morning i woke up and i was able to move it just fine and it's felt awesome ever since!
haha...oh, God...You are so cool :)
Tuesday, November 18, 2014
Monday, November 17, 2014
{#4-Emoni}
i know i missed a couple days...but i HAVE to share this story with y'all :)
so tonight was the second night i helped out at this thing called "mission Utoo". every sunday night, some people in the community get together and grill out burgers and hotdogs and set up and people can come and get a free meal. and tonight we even had soup because it was so cold! last weekend was SO awesome. God gave so many opportunities to pray for people and play with the kids that were there. i left with a full heart...because God was SO there and HIS work is being done through everyone that serves.
well, tonight was pretty awesome, too :) jace, one of the main guys who sets up mission Utoo in Giddings (where i live)...and also one of my bosses!...came up to me and asked if i would be willing to share my testimony as people came through the line. so, he prayed...then gave me the mic and i got to share God's love and forgiveness with the people who were waiting in line. wow. such a gift and privilege! we served SO many people, even though it was cold and wet. at the end, we had pretty much cleaned up everything when 4 people came up and asked if we were still serving. we were able to give them the rest of the soup (which was JUST enough for them) and the hotdogs and hamburgers that were left. they were so thankful. before they left, we asked if we could pray for them. they gladly accepted. wow. i ended up praying for a girl named Emoni. she was probably my age or a bit younger...and she's 6 months pregnant. she was so beautiful and i was so excited to be able to speak life and truth over her and the sweet baby growing inside of her. after we were done praying, i went over to give her a hug. as we hugged, out of my mouth came the words "i love you"...and she just started crying. she said, "i haven't heard those words in quite a while. thank you." oh, my heart. she kept hugging me and God just started giving me more truth to speak over her...that she is precious and loved and treasured and that she is not defined by her circumstances, but her security rests in Christ and His love for her is so perfect...and i could tell she was receiving it.
this was one of the most beautiful moments i've had in quite some time...to God be the glory.
so tonight was the second night i helped out at this thing called "mission Utoo". every sunday night, some people in the community get together and grill out burgers and hotdogs and set up and people can come and get a free meal. and tonight we even had soup because it was so cold! last weekend was SO awesome. God gave so many opportunities to pray for people and play with the kids that were there. i left with a full heart...because God was SO there and HIS work is being done through everyone that serves.
well, tonight was pretty awesome, too :) jace, one of the main guys who sets up mission Utoo in Giddings (where i live)...and also one of my bosses!...came up to me and asked if i would be willing to share my testimony as people came through the line. so, he prayed...then gave me the mic and i got to share God's love and forgiveness with the people who were waiting in line. wow. such a gift and privilege! we served SO many people, even though it was cold and wet. at the end, we had pretty much cleaned up everything when 4 people came up and asked if we were still serving. we were able to give them the rest of the soup (which was JUST enough for them) and the hotdogs and hamburgers that were left. they were so thankful. before they left, we asked if we could pray for them. they gladly accepted. wow. i ended up praying for a girl named Emoni. she was probably my age or a bit younger...and she's 6 months pregnant. she was so beautiful and i was so excited to be able to speak life and truth over her and the sweet baby growing inside of her. after we were done praying, i went over to give her a hug. as we hugged, out of my mouth came the words "i love you"...and she just started crying. she said, "i haven't heard those words in quite a while. thank you." oh, my heart. she kept hugging me and God just started giving me more truth to speak over her...that she is precious and loved and treasured and that she is not defined by her circumstances, but her security rests in Christ and His love for her is so perfect...and i could tell she was receiving it.
this was one of the most beautiful moments i've had in quite some time...to God be the glory.
Friday, November 14, 2014
{#3-Brittany&hugs}
so, working at a camp sometimes feels like you're in a bubble. you see the same people everyday and to "take a risk" in talking to someone doesn't always feel like a risk. so sometimes, like today, i went through the day not really "feeling" like i was supposed to talk specifically to someone or ask someone if they needed prayer for anything. i prayed for people in my mind and heart and really enjoyed my time with them...but my risk came in a different form.
do you ever ask God for something...and then wonder if it's ok to ask Him for that thing? yeah. well, that happened today. today, i took a risk and asked God for hugs. i've literally been aching for more hugs...so i decided that i'd voice it to God...and trust Him for whatever that looked like. so i went through my day...and there were actually quite a few times when people came up to me and voluntarily gave me a hug. wow. my heart. so full. but there was one in particular that stood out to me.
i work with my friend Brittany every day. we're in Guest Services together...and she's always got me laughing. there is NEVER a dull moment with her!! she keeps me sane and has told me, "molly, you can't take life so seriously." and she helps me do just that. well...today after lunch, i stood up to leave and she was sitting next to me. i started walking and she tapped my arm...and then just wrapped me up in a full hug. it was honestly the best. i don't know what it was about it...but receiving that hug from her just filled me to the brim. i felt safe and SO loved.
so...thanks, Brittany. you were an answer to prayer today. and to the others that gave me hugs today? couldn't have gotten through it without you.
thanks, God. <3 br="">
do you ever ask God for something...and then wonder if it's ok to ask Him for that thing? yeah. well, that happened today. today, i took a risk and asked God for hugs. i've literally been aching for more hugs...so i decided that i'd voice it to God...and trust Him for whatever that looked like. so i went through my day...and there were actually quite a few times when people came up to me and voluntarily gave me a hug. wow. my heart. so full. but there was one in particular that stood out to me.
i work with my friend Brittany every day. we're in Guest Services together...and she's always got me laughing. there is NEVER a dull moment with her!! she keeps me sane and has told me, "molly, you can't take life so seriously." and she helps me do just that. well...today after lunch, i stood up to leave and she was sitting next to me. i started walking and she tapped my arm...and then just wrapped me up in a full hug. it was honestly the best. i don't know what it was about it...but receiving that hug from her just filled me to the brim. i felt safe and SO loved.
so...thanks, Brittany. you were an answer to prayer today. and to the others that gave me hugs today? couldn't have gotten through it without you.
thanks, God. <3 br="">
Wednesday, November 12, 2014
{#2-Charles}
on monday i was playing volleyball by myself...which was ok :) i needed some time alone. close by the court, there were a bunch of guys working on our new coffee shop/gift shop (which is looking amazing!!). as i served the ball, one of the guys, Charles, looks at me and says, "hey, put a smile on your face, now!"...and i responded with a "yes, sir!". it made me think about the look that must've been on my face...and made me so thankful for a person who kinda called me out and put me in my place.
well, today, i was walking and i saw Charles and i almost walked past him. but i decided to stop and say thanks for what he said on monday. as we talked, he said some things that were just so great: "you know, you never know what someone is going through. we all go through stuff, ya know? and i just wanted to make it better." so thankful. and so thankful for a reminder that we never know what people are going through...so we need to make sure we take life slow enough to speak life to them and take time to remember to give grace.
well, today, i was walking and i saw Charles and i almost walked past him. but i decided to stop and say thanks for what he said on monday. as we talked, he said some things that were just so great: "you know, you never know what someone is going through. we all go through stuff, ya know? and i just wanted to make it better." so thankful. and so thankful for a reminder that we never know what people are going through...so we need to make sure we take life slow enough to speak life to them and take time to remember to give grace.
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
{#1-Rene}
so i read a blog today called "one thousand risks"...basically every day asking Jesus what He's doing, where He's working, and being obedient to where the Spirit leads...and recording the stories of what Jesus does. up to 1,000. now...i don't know if i'm gonna reach 1,000...but i do want to join in with Jesus and share with you what He's up to here in my every day life in Texas.
so...#1.
i had to go to wal-mart today to get some groceries. as i went through the check-out, i sensed that God wanted me to talk with the cashier. her name was Rene. i had bought a huge jar of peanut butter and that's what struck up our conversation. we talked about peanut butter oatmeal cookies (which i made last night!) and she mentioned that she has a peanut butter fudge recipe that is a family favorite. she shared it with me and as our conversation went on, i asked if there was anything i could pray about for her. she said yes. her 2 day old niece, Arieona Marie, is in a children's hospital in Louisiana on a breathing machine because she came out of the womb with a collapsed lung. i told her i would pray...and she said thanks. she then wrote down the recipe for the peanut butter fudge for me...and i left with a full heart.
so...#1.
i had to go to wal-mart today to get some groceries. as i went through the check-out, i sensed that God wanted me to talk with the cashier. her name was Rene. i had bought a huge jar of peanut butter and that's what struck up our conversation. we talked about peanut butter oatmeal cookies (which i made last night!) and she mentioned that she has a peanut butter fudge recipe that is a family favorite. she shared it with me and as our conversation went on, i asked if there was anything i could pray about for her. she said yes. her 2 day old niece, Arieona Marie, is in a children's hospital in Louisiana on a breathing machine because she came out of the womb with a collapsed lung. i told her i would pray...and she said thanks. she then wrote down the recipe for the peanut butter fudge for me...and i left with a full heart.
Thursday, October 30, 2014
love is an umbrella
just a bit from my time with Jesus this morning...
"because to make YOU the center means letting go of control and my will...and surrendering to YOUR control and YOUR will. it means loosening this death-grip on me...and resting in the grip You took on death...and crushed...and in turn took a grip on me-so that i could die to myself and come alive in You...and take hold of real life.
humility.
honor.
love.
love is the umbrella that humility and honor fall under.
it is the glue that holds it all together.
it is the river from which everything else flows.
the source from which everything else comes.
it is the outflow from letting Christ be in me-because HE.IS.LOVE.
without love, nothing else matters-it's all a futile effort of performance and approval.
when i don't "feel" love/loved, i resort to earning it-which exerts more strain and heartache because i feel the need to prove something-to God and others.
i feel like there's something more that i can give-instead of realizing that all that's worth giving is Jesus.
and i can't even give Jesus if i haven't taken time to RECEIVE Him...and receive FROM HIM-receive who He is, what He's like.
how can i be like someone if i don't take the time to get to know who they really are?
and what's more beautiful and meaningful than giving?
because every time i try to give what i don't have, i'm actually trying to get something i don't need.
satan tries to convince me that the more i get-from trying to give what i don't have-the happier i'll be.
but JESUS says: "the more of ME you receive-and then GIVE AWAY-that's when joy becomes your heartbeat."
joy is a result of giving myself away-
dying to me, my flesh, my desires and living in who Jesus-HIS heart, HIS desires.
"...for the joy set before Him, He endured the cross, scorning its shame." (Hebrews 12:2)
JOY was set before Jesus...but the only way He could get there was enduring death...the ultimate act of obedience to His Father.
and what is obeDIEnce, but DYING to ourselves and coming alive in what God has called us to?
that's when JOY comes to life.
that's when LOVE comes to life.
that's when i begin to see that it's really not about me and what i can get and hold onto.
it's all about JESUS, what i receive from HIM-and then give away."
*Colossians 3:12-14*
*Romans 13:14*
*Philippians 2:3-7*
*1 Corinthians 13*
"because to make YOU the center means letting go of control and my will...and surrendering to YOUR control and YOUR will. it means loosening this death-grip on me...and resting in the grip You took on death...and crushed...and in turn took a grip on me-so that i could die to myself and come alive in You...and take hold of real life.
humility.
honor.
love.
love is the umbrella that humility and honor fall under.
it is the glue that holds it all together.
it is the river from which everything else flows.
the source from which everything else comes.
it is the outflow from letting Christ be in me-because HE.IS.LOVE.
without love, nothing else matters-it's all a futile effort of performance and approval.
when i don't "feel" love/loved, i resort to earning it-which exerts more strain and heartache because i feel the need to prove something-to God and others.
i feel like there's something more that i can give-instead of realizing that all that's worth giving is Jesus.
and i can't even give Jesus if i haven't taken time to RECEIVE Him...and receive FROM HIM-receive who He is, what He's like.
how can i be like someone if i don't take the time to get to know who they really are?
and what's more beautiful and meaningful than giving?
because every time i try to give what i don't have, i'm actually trying to get something i don't need.
satan tries to convince me that the more i get-from trying to give what i don't have-the happier i'll be.
but JESUS says: "the more of ME you receive-and then GIVE AWAY-that's when joy becomes your heartbeat."
joy is a result of giving myself away-
dying to me, my flesh, my desires and living in who Jesus-HIS heart, HIS desires.
"...for the joy set before Him, He endured the cross, scorning its shame." (Hebrews 12:2)
JOY was set before Jesus...but the only way He could get there was enduring death...the ultimate act of obedience to His Father.
and what is obeDIEnce, but DYING to ourselves and coming alive in what God has called us to?
that's when JOY comes to life.
that's when LOVE comes to life.
that's when i begin to see that it's really not about me and what i can get and hold onto.
it's all about JESUS, what i receive from HIM-and then give away."
*Colossians 3:12-14*
*Romans 13:14*
*Philippians 2:3-7*
*1 Corinthians 13*
Saturday, October 4, 2014
at a loss and so full
sometimes i just wish there was a way i could actually put into words what happens inside my heart. especially today.
over the past 2 days, i have had more life and truth and love spoken to me than i have in a while...especially in such a short period of time.
i'm really amazed...and sometimes i wonder why. why does it amaze me that God hears my prayers...AND answers them? why does it amaze me that when i ask Him for encouragement, He sends it? why does it amaze me that when i ask Him to take the clouds away so i can see the stars, He DOES it? why does it amaze me that when i ask Him for strength to get through the day because i'm SO exhausted, He just carries me and i make it through like i had 10 hours of sleep the night before?
why do those things amaze me? isn't that who God is? isn't that what He does? and yet...every time...i stand there and smile and say, "God, You're just so cool."
but maybe that's the way it should be. maybe He really delights in the fact that these small things are actually big things to me because He knows it's the little things that get to the deepest parts of my heart. and maybe it's just His way of speaking love to me.
or...maybe i'm beginning to see things differently. maybe i'm beginning to actually believe that when i ask something of Jesus...big or small...He will do it. and then when He does, it's just so beautiful...and it restores faith and love. it turns my eyes back to HIM and not to my own means. maybe He's showing me that He is faithful in these "small" things...so i can trust Him with the big things, too...and i don't have to try and figure things out on my own.
or...maybe it's a combination of all of these things. whatever it is, i'm just so at a loss...and i'm in awe...and i'm so thankful.
woah.
i'm at a loss...but i'm so full.
yeah, Jesus. that makes so much sense. it's when i'm less and empty that i'm the most full because all that's left to fill me is You...and You fill me perfectly. it's when i try and do this on my own that when i feel "full", it's a false full because it's me. and all i have to "fill" myself with is a false sense of security and joy...which, in the end, just leaves me empty and lacking.
gosh. what beauty and glory to know that it's ok to be at a loss...and still be FULL.
yeah.
over the past 2 days, i have had more life and truth and love spoken to me than i have in a while...especially in such a short period of time.
i'm really amazed...and sometimes i wonder why. why does it amaze me that God hears my prayers...AND answers them? why does it amaze me that when i ask Him for encouragement, He sends it? why does it amaze me that when i ask Him to take the clouds away so i can see the stars, He DOES it? why does it amaze me that when i ask Him for strength to get through the day because i'm SO exhausted, He just carries me and i make it through like i had 10 hours of sleep the night before?
why do those things amaze me? isn't that who God is? isn't that what He does? and yet...every time...i stand there and smile and say, "God, You're just so cool."
but maybe that's the way it should be. maybe He really delights in the fact that these small things are actually big things to me because He knows it's the little things that get to the deepest parts of my heart. and maybe it's just His way of speaking love to me.
or...maybe i'm beginning to see things differently. maybe i'm beginning to actually believe that when i ask something of Jesus...big or small...He will do it. and then when He does, it's just so beautiful...and it restores faith and love. it turns my eyes back to HIM and not to my own means. maybe He's showing me that He is faithful in these "small" things...so i can trust Him with the big things, too...and i don't have to try and figure things out on my own.
or...maybe it's a combination of all of these things. whatever it is, i'm just so at a loss...and i'm in awe...and i'm so thankful.
woah.
i'm at a loss...but i'm so full.
yeah, Jesus. that makes so much sense. it's when i'm less and empty that i'm the most full because all that's left to fill me is You...and You fill me perfectly. it's when i try and do this on my own that when i feel "full", it's a false full because it's me. and all i have to "fill" myself with is a false sense of security and joy...which, in the end, just leaves me empty and lacking.
gosh. what beauty and glory to know that it's ok to be at a loss...and still be FULL.
yeah.
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
not what i was expecting...
well...it's been a really long time since i've done this...and i apologize.
a lot has happened in the past 2 months...like going to South Africa for 2 weeks...and then moving to Texas 2 weeks after that. yeah. it's been a lot to sort through. and my overall consensus? none of it is what i was expecting.
Africa was great. and i am so thankful i went. it definitely was a dream come true. but i went in, thinking i knew what to expect and what i was doing...and i couldn't have been more wrong.
ya know, it's when you go into situations with a mindset like that, that you just set yourself up for disappointment. because if nothing happens the way you expected it to, then you miss out on what could have been because you're so focused on being bummed about things not going your way...and you'll probably never know. but if everything DOES go as planned, what's the fun in being amazed and surprised in spontaneity or the freedom in changing plans? now, i'm not dissing making plans or encouraging going into a situation completely blind...but what i am saying is that we should always leave room for change...for Jesus to completely have His way, whatever that looks like.
and i've definitely been learning that my first 2 weeks here in texas.
life has been hard these past 2 weeks. i packed up my things and came to a place where i knew no one and only knew the jist of what i was going to be doing. i came into a place where Jesus is everywhere...and the people here love Jesus so much...and people MY age love Jesus a lot and i get to LIVE with them and work with them. a total dream come true...right? well, yeah. but here's the thing: i've had to completely let go of control here. i am in a whole new environment...i don't know everyone and everyone does not know me. it's like i'm starting all over in areas where i thought i knew what to do or knew how to be. i have had to be dependent on people instead of being the one others depend on. i've had to ask for help and prayer instead of being the one people come to to ask for help and prayer. i've had to be honest about my shortcomings and ugly heart...before God and people here instead of being the one listening to others share their struggles.
and i hope you hear this: i'm not saying these things to puff myself up or to say "oh, look at me"...this is just the real, raw, honest truth of what's been going on in my heart. i am out of my comfort zone. my security and "normalcy" have been stripped from me...and i've cried. a lot of tears. i've broken down in front of everyone. things have triggered emotions in my heart that i didn't even know i had. and my pride has just been being consistently broken. and i am brought low...right where i should be.
this transition was not what i was expecting. but i will tell you this: the community of people God has placed around me has been more than what i ever dared to ask for. i have been encouraged, held, prayed for, and so much truth has been spoken to me...the same truth from so many different people: it's ok to ask for help. it's ok to be dependent. it's ok to not have it all together. this year is a year for you to learn that you don't always have to be the strong one for others...that Jesus is that for you and that He gives you people to be that for you as well. you weren't meant to do this life alone...you weren't meant to carry burdens by yourself.
so, i've basically had to come to the end of myself...and i'm still not there. everyday is SUCH a struggle. and this struggle is not against flesh and blood, but totally in the spiritual realm. satan is real and his lies are real and his attacks are real. i don't think i've ever felt so much anxiety or self doubt than in these past 2 weeks. and oh, how easy to let those things in. and before you know it, you feel like you're drowning and you can barely breathe. and when you're where you're supposed to be, he comes in even harder.
BUT, one thing i know: Jesus is real. God is real. the Holy Spirit is real. and the same power that lived in Jesus lives in me. and Jesus is bigger and stronger and more powerful. and He is TRUTH and the Spirit leads into all truth. and the only way i'm gonna know that truth is to read the Words God gave me...and then apply them to my life.
so, a lot of people are asking me how i'm doing and how i'm liking texas.
my answer: only by the grace of God am i where i am today. these past 2 weeks have been some of the most emotionally, physically and spiritually draining weeks i've ever had. but they have also been 2 of the most refining...and there's 50 more to go. i can't believe i am going to be here for 1 whole year.
as for texas...i really do like it :) yes, it's hot...yes, it's hot...and oh-did i mention it's hot? :D but seriously. it's a beautiful state and Tejas is a beautiful place. Jesus is so alive and moving here, it's unreal.
please pray for me:
~that i keep my eyes on Jesus
~that i don't resist change in my heart
~that our community would continue to grow closer to each other and Jesus
~that i would apply what i learn
~against anxiety and self-doubt and insecurity
i am so thankful for each one of you...for your love, encouragement and support. i could not do this without you!!
this is not what i was expecting...but it's ok. it's what Jesus was expecting...and He's worth it.
a lot has happened in the past 2 months...like going to South Africa for 2 weeks...and then moving to Texas 2 weeks after that. yeah. it's been a lot to sort through. and my overall consensus? none of it is what i was expecting.
Africa was great. and i am so thankful i went. it definitely was a dream come true. but i went in, thinking i knew what to expect and what i was doing...and i couldn't have been more wrong.
ya know, it's when you go into situations with a mindset like that, that you just set yourself up for disappointment. because if nothing happens the way you expected it to, then you miss out on what could have been because you're so focused on being bummed about things not going your way...and you'll probably never know. but if everything DOES go as planned, what's the fun in being amazed and surprised in spontaneity or the freedom in changing plans? now, i'm not dissing making plans or encouraging going into a situation completely blind...but what i am saying is that we should always leave room for change...for Jesus to completely have His way, whatever that looks like.
and i've definitely been learning that my first 2 weeks here in texas.
life has been hard these past 2 weeks. i packed up my things and came to a place where i knew no one and only knew the jist of what i was going to be doing. i came into a place where Jesus is everywhere...and the people here love Jesus so much...and people MY age love Jesus a lot and i get to LIVE with them and work with them. a total dream come true...right? well, yeah. but here's the thing: i've had to completely let go of control here. i am in a whole new environment...i don't know everyone and everyone does not know me. it's like i'm starting all over in areas where i thought i knew what to do or knew how to be. i have had to be dependent on people instead of being the one others depend on. i've had to ask for help and prayer instead of being the one people come to to ask for help and prayer. i've had to be honest about my shortcomings and ugly heart...before God and people here instead of being the one listening to others share their struggles.
and i hope you hear this: i'm not saying these things to puff myself up or to say "oh, look at me"...this is just the real, raw, honest truth of what's been going on in my heart. i am out of my comfort zone. my security and "normalcy" have been stripped from me...and i've cried. a lot of tears. i've broken down in front of everyone. things have triggered emotions in my heart that i didn't even know i had. and my pride has just been being consistently broken. and i am brought low...right where i should be.
this transition was not what i was expecting. but i will tell you this: the community of people God has placed around me has been more than what i ever dared to ask for. i have been encouraged, held, prayed for, and so much truth has been spoken to me...the same truth from so many different people: it's ok to ask for help. it's ok to be dependent. it's ok to not have it all together. this year is a year for you to learn that you don't always have to be the strong one for others...that Jesus is that for you and that He gives you people to be that for you as well. you weren't meant to do this life alone...you weren't meant to carry burdens by yourself.
so, i've basically had to come to the end of myself...and i'm still not there. everyday is SUCH a struggle. and this struggle is not against flesh and blood, but totally in the spiritual realm. satan is real and his lies are real and his attacks are real. i don't think i've ever felt so much anxiety or self doubt than in these past 2 weeks. and oh, how easy to let those things in. and before you know it, you feel like you're drowning and you can barely breathe. and when you're where you're supposed to be, he comes in even harder.
BUT, one thing i know: Jesus is real. God is real. the Holy Spirit is real. and the same power that lived in Jesus lives in me. and Jesus is bigger and stronger and more powerful. and He is TRUTH and the Spirit leads into all truth. and the only way i'm gonna know that truth is to read the Words God gave me...and then apply them to my life.
so, a lot of people are asking me how i'm doing and how i'm liking texas.
my answer: only by the grace of God am i where i am today. these past 2 weeks have been some of the most emotionally, physically and spiritually draining weeks i've ever had. but they have also been 2 of the most refining...and there's 50 more to go. i can't believe i am going to be here for 1 whole year.
as for texas...i really do like it :) yes, it's hot...yes, it's hot...and oh-did i mention it's hot? :D but seriously. it's a beautiful state and Tejas is a beautiful place. Jesus is so alive and moving here, it's unreal.
please pray for me:
~that i keep my eyes on Jesus
~that i don't resist change in my heart
~that our community would continue to grow closer to each other and Jesus
~that i would apply what i learn
~against anxiety and self-doubt and insecurity
i am so thankful for each one of you...for your love, encouragement and support. i could not do this without you!!
this is not what i was expecting...but it's ok. it's what Jesus was expecting...and He's worth it.
Friday, July 18, 2014
if i...
if i speak, may i speak only the words of Jesus...full of grace and truth.
if i touch, may i only touch with gentleness.
if i walk, may i only walk in the footsteps of the One who has gone before me, leaving an example for me to follow in His steps.
if i see, may i see through eyes of compassion.
if i feel, may i feel deeply, to the deepest corners...and may it drive me to action.
if i receive, may i count it all as grace...all as a gift...and find a way to give it away.
if i live in prosperity, may it be prosperity in the eternal...things that only truly matter.
if i run, may it only be away from evil and toward the prize waiting for me in heaven.
if i fall, may i stay on my knees until i am lifted to see from a holy perspective.
if i am lifted up, may i only point others to the One who is above all.
if i die, may i only die to myself.
if i live, may i only live to Jesus.
for me to live is Christ...and to die is gain.
i count my life as nothing if i do not have Jesus...for apart from Him, i can do nothing.
i don't want to gain the whole world and lose my soul.
if i touch, may i only touch with gentleness.
if i walk, may i only walk in the footsteps of the One who has gone before me, leaving an example for me to follow in His steps.
if i see, may i see through eyes of compassion.
if i feel, may i feel deeply, to the deepest corners...and may it drive me to action.
if i receive, may i count it all as grace...all as a gift...and find a way to give it away.
if i live in prosperity, may it be prosperity in the eternal...things that only truly matter.
if i run, may it only be away from evil and toward the prize waiting for me in heaven.
if i fall, may i stay on my knees until i am lifted to see from a holy perspective.
if i am lifted up, may i only point others to the One who is above all.
if i die, may i only die to myself.
if i live, may i only live to Jesus.
for me to live is Christ...and to die is gain.
i count my life as nothing if i do not have Jesus...for apart from Him, i can do nothing.
i don't want to gain the whole world and lose my soul.
Saturday, June 28, 2014
Let Jesus Be Your Mirror
When you look into the mirror and you don't like what you see,
Let Me be your mirror. My TRUTH will set you free.
When it says that you are worthless-you won't amount to anything-
Let this TRUTH surround you: YOU ARE A CHILD OF THE KING.
When it calls you a failure, no matter how hard you try-
The TRUTH is, My Beloved: YOU'RE MY TREASURE, YOU'RE MY BRIDE.
That old, distorted mirror insists the past will always stay.
Know this TRUTH, My Dear Child: YOUR SINS ARE WASHED AWAY.
You are My treasured possession, clothed in robes of righteousness.
My clothes of salvation adorn you-in Me alone will you find rest.
I made you in My image-intricately formed each and every part.
I breathed My breath into you, healing the wounds of your broken heart.
Yes, the healing is a process-sometimes a long road.
Don't become discouraged, Dear One. This long road leads home.
So whenever you look into that mirror and you don't like what you see-
Let Me be your mirror. My TRUTH will set you free.
*Mark 10:46-52*
(seriously, read this.)
Let Me be your mirror. My TRUTH will set you free.
When it says that you are worthless-you won't amount to anything-
Let this TRUTH surround you: YOU ARE A CHILD OF THE KING.
When it calls you a failure, no matter how hard you try-
The TRUTH is, My Beloved: YOU'RE MY TREASURE, YOU'RE MY BRIDE.
That old, distorted mirror insists the past will always stay.
Know this TRUTH, My Dear Child: YOUR SINS ARE WASHED AWAY.
You are My treasured possession, clothed in robes of righteousness.
My clothes of salvation adorn you-in Me alone will you find rest.
I made you in My image-intricately formed each and every part.
I breathed My breath into you, healing the wounds of your broken heart.
Yes, the healing is a process-sometimes a long road.
Don't become discouraged, Dear One. This long road leads home.
So whenever you look into that mirror and you don't like what you see-
Let Me be your mirror. My TRUTH will set you free.
THE PAST MAY SHAPE WHO YOU ARE-
BUT IT DOES NOT HAVE TO DEFINE WHO YOU WILL BECOME.
*Mark 10:46-52*
(seriously, read this.)
Monday, June 16, 2014
fantasy...or ultimate?
so, i watched a movie last week...a "chick flick" to be exact. the typical, "the guy meets the girl and after a few mishaps, they make up and they all live happily ever after" kind. after i watch these kinds of movies, i usually sigh and think "man, i can't wait for that to happen to me some day."
except...that's not what got me this time.
this time, i was so blown away by the use of a woman's body to get...and KEEP a man's attention. there was barely ANYTHING about her inside...about her character...about her heart. (i know not all movies have that...but i can think of quite a few that do!)
and after watching this...it left me thinking: "wow. i wish i had a body that would capture a man's attention."
yep. 100% truth right there.
and...as i was sitting there thinking that, God comes back at me with this:
"Do you really want a guy who only cares about what's on the outside...and not the INSIDE? Your character and heart?"
and i sat there...and wrestled.
i said: "well, yeah, God, i want that...but the outside doesn't hurt, right?"
and God just kept saying over and over again: "Do you really want a guy who only cares about what's on the outside...and not the INSIDE? Your character and heart?"
i've heard that so many times...i've mentioned it to A LOT of girls over the past few years...and there comes a point when you have to take your own advice (ESPECIALLY when God speaks it right back to the deepest corners of your heart) and believe it.
because over the past few days i've really been thinking about it...and i realize that the more concerned i am about my outward appearance, the less concerned i am about the condition of my heart. and the less i'm concerned about my heart, the more my heart becomes ugly...and i start to act ugly and i forget the BEAUTY that is JESUS...and that He is ultimately beautiful and not just useful...and that, really, HE is living inside of me...so shouldn't beauty be coming OUT of me?
our culture...movies...commercials...clothing stores...it seems EVERYWHERE...the message that is being spoken to us is this:
"look this way. eat this. don't eat that. how to look sexier in a week. less is more."
and on and on it goes. and we're told how to be on the outside to get attention that is only temporary and fleeting and appeals only to the flesh. very rarely are we ever encouraged to nurture and care for what REALLY counts...our hearts. that's what i love about Jesus...and His word. it's SO relevant to us in showing us what REALLY matters...what will last forever.
and who doesn't want that?
"Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the sinful nature." ~Romans 13:14
"Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity." ~Colossians 3:12-14
so, i've been faced with this question: fantasy reality or ultimate reality?
fantasy reality: what movies portray...an escape from dealing with the hurts in my heart and the ugly that is there. a picture where everything turns out just right and i live happily ever after with a guy who is really only interested in what i look like on the outside.
ultimate reality: what Jesus portrays...HIS BEST FOR ME. dealing with the hurts in my heart and the ugly that is there...but not alone and not in a human relationship. a picture where eventually everything turns out just right because of HIS PERFECT love and forgiveness and death and resurrection. and a love i get to have as much of as i want and it never runs out and He's everything i could ever need/ask for...and more. a love to true, it sees the deepest parts of me and doesn't run away. a God who sees my heart for what it is...and offers to clothe me in beauty, not my own...but in robes of righteousness, given to me by Jesus, who IS my righteousness...in compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, patience, forgiveness and love. and my happily ever after is secured for me in heaven...a love story that will truly, never end.
so, with all of this said, i choose the ULTIMATE reality. i choose JESUS. and i will continue to choose JESUS, even after He Lord-willing brings a man into my life who loves my heart and not just what i look like...and even if He doesn't.
because, God? i DON'T really want a guy who only cares about what's on the outside.
except...that's not what got me this time.
this time, i was so blown away by the use of a woman's body to get...and KEEP a man's attention. there was barely ANYTHING about her inside...about her character...about her heart. (i know not all movies have that...but i can think of quite a few that do!)
and after watching this...it left me thinking: "wow. i wish i had a body that would capture a man's attention."
yep. 100% truth right there.
and...as i was sitting there thinking that, God comes back at me with this:
"Do you really want a guy who only cares about what's on the outside...and not the INSIDE? Your character and heart?"
and i sat there...and wrestled.
i said: "well, yeah, God, i want that...but the outside doesn't hurt, right?"
and God just kept saying over and over again: "Do you really want a guy who only cares about what's on the outside...and not the INSIDE? Your character and heart?"
i've heard that so many times...i've mentioned it to A LOT of girls over the past few years...and there comes a point when you have to take your own advice (ESPECIALLY when God speaks it right back to the deepest corners of your heart) and believe it.
because over the past few days i've really been thinking about it...and i realize that the more concerned i am about my outward appearance, the less concerned i am about the condition of my heart. and the less i'm concerned about my heart, the more my heart becomes ugly...and i start to act ugly and i forget the BEAUTY that is JESUS...and that He is ultimately beautiful and not just useful...and that, really, HE is living inside of me...so shouldn't beauty be coming OUT of me?
our culture...movies...commercials...clothing stores...it seems EVERYWHERE...the message that is being spoken to us is this:
"look this way. eat this. don't eat that. how to look sexier in a week. less is more."
and on and on it goes. and we're told how to be on the outside to get attention that is only temporary and fleeting and appeals only to the flesh. very rarely are we ever encouraged to nurture and care for what REALLY counts...our hearts. that's what i love about Jesus...and His word. it's SO relevant to us in showing us what REALLY matters...what will last forever.
and who doesn't want that?
"Rather, clothe yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ, and do not think about how to gratify the desires of the sinful nature." ~Romans 13:14
"Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity." ~Colossians 3:12-14
so, i've been faced with this question: fantasy reality or ultimate reality?
fantasy reality: what movies portray...an escape from dealing with the hurts in my heart and the ugly that is there. a picture where everything turns out just right and i live happily ever after with a guy who is really only interested in what i look like on the outside.
ultimate reality: what Jesus portrays...HIS BEST FOR ME. dealing with the hurts in my heart and the ugly that is there...but not alone and not in a human relationship. a picture where eventually everything turns out just right because of HIS PERFECT love and forgiveness and death and resurrection. and a love i get to have as much of as i want and it never runs out and He's everything i could ever need/ask for...and more. a love to true, it sees the deepest parts of me and doesn't run away. a God who sees my heart for what it is...and offers to clothe me in beauty, not my own...but in robes of righteousness, given to me by Jesus, who IS my righteousness...in compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, patience, forgiveness and love. and my happily ever after is secured for me in heaven...a love story that will truly, never end.
so, with all of this said, i choose the ULTIMATE reality. i choose JESUS. and i will continue to choose JESUS, even after He Lord-willing brings a man into my life who loves my heart and not just what i look like...and even if He doesn't.
because, God? i DON'T really want a guy who only cares about what's on the outside.
Monday, June 2, 2014
South Africa...Texas...WHAT?!?
WOW.
that's literally one of the only words that comes to mind for what God has been putting together these past couple months. along with..."wow"...and "crazy"...and "wow"...and...well, you get the idea.
so...let me fill you in.
ever since i was 10, i've wanted to go to Africa. i believed God was calling me to be a missionary. something about that continent intrigued me and i just couldn't wait to experience it. well...thanksgiving day of 2013, i got a text about going to South Africa on a missions trip. seriously? SIGN ME UP! and honestly, step by step of this big dream, God has been so faithful, calling me to walk by faith and not sight. He has provided and put little pieces together...and i am SO thankful and overwhelmed. and in a little over a month, i will be in Africa.
WOW.
ever since i was...well, i don't really remember, but it's been quite a while (!!!!), i've loved the thought of working at a camp. i never was a camp counselor (either because i had a job through the summer or because of a missions trip), but the stories i heard from others who experienced it drew me in and i kept it in the back of my mind and it resurrected often. i thought, "dang. hanging out with kids, encouraging them in their relationship with Jesus, spending time with others around my age going after the same thing? i could totally live with that!" and honestly, each time i went on a missions trip, i experienced a taste of that...and at times it felt insatiable. i felt SO in my element, like i was thriving and could feel no more joy than was already exploding in my heart. the community, encouragement, challenging conversations, responsibility and fulfillment each time was the best. so, i prayed. i prayed that God would put pieces together as He saw fit, whatever it looked like, and that i would follow, even if it was scary. i prayed that whatever He had in mind would be glorifying to Him first and foremost and that whatever it was He planned would be something where i could use the gifts, passions and talents He has given me. i prayed "not my will, but YOURS be done".
well, in February, my dad sits down and says, "can i make a suggestion to you, Molly?" i sigh, and pray for an open mind and heart to really hear what he has to say (because my dad is AWESOME and so wise!) and i say, "sure, Dad...whatcha got for me?" he says, "well, i was just thinking: do you think you could maybe have an idea, by May, of what you're going to do after you get back from South Africa?" i laugh. i couldn't help it! but i stopped and thought about it and said, "ya know, Dad, that's a really great idea. if God gives you any insight, could you let me know??" but i really did take that to heart and started praying that God would bring opportunities...and that i would be attentive to see what He had in mind. March came and went and about the first week of April i was talking with my mom about possibilities of what could happen after South Africa. she mentioned something about camp again...and i decided, "why not?" and started to look online. i needed something that would pay (because as much as i like to deny it, money is kinda important for some sort of survival) and a place that Jesus is lifted up. so i pulled up google and typed in "paid positions at christian camps"...and it took me to a page where there were a bunch of camps that listed job opportunities. score! and as i looked through, there were a couple that jumped out at me...and i applied. one in Arkansas...and one in Texas.
CRAZY.
so...then i prayed. a lot. and after i applied, other opportunities came up...but each one didn't work out, for one reason or another. the last week of April, i got an e-mail from the camp in Arkansas that said they weren't looking for any full time positions at this time, but thanks for your interest. and i said, "ok, God. this is totally up to You. Texas is the last place i'm waiting to hear from. i trust You." and a couple days later, i got an e-mail from the camp in Texas saying, "we've looked over your application and would like to interview you."
WOW.
so, the next week (MAY) they called and we talked...for 2 1/2 hours. it was so refreshing and encouraging and i hung up thanking God for even the opportunity to talk with them. they said they'd let me know at least by the end of the week or early the next week. "God, i trust You. if they offer me the position, thank You. if they don't, thank You. i know You know what's best for me. not my will, but YOUR will be done." it was really the first time in my life where i had complete peace, no matter which way it went. God is so great :) so...i waited...and waited...and waited...and finally, tuesday of the next week, i got a phone call from Texas. "hi, molly! i was just wondering if you've had a chance to think about the internship and was wondering if you'd like to join our team here in Texas for a year." silence. shock.
WOW.
"yes, i would!"...i said it almost without thinking. and there it was. i committed to going to texas...for a year...with people i didn't even know...not knowing if i'd even be able to come home at all...thinking about all the things i would miss out on here at home...counting the cost. and i cried. tears from every emotion possible. and i asked myself, "what did i just do? did i really do that?"...and it started to sink in. i told my mom...and dad...and they were excited...and cried, too. i told my brothers...and they were excited. and the next couple days were a blur of every emotion under the sun.
CRAZY.
but honestly, let me tell you...these past couple weeks God has ignited in me an excitement that is completely from Him! is it pretty much insanity that 2 weeks after i return from an unbelievable time in South Africa, i'm getting on a plane and heading down to Texas for a whole year? YES. is it kind of crazy that i won't be home for a year? ABSOLUTELY. am i still overwhelmed at all of this? 100%! but let me tell you this: God has orchestrated EVERY aspect and detail. i will be in a place of discipleship and community. i will be in a place that lifts Jesus higher. i will be in a place where i will be encouraged and challenged to live my life in the footsteps of Jesus. i know it will be hard at times. i know it will be uncomfortable. i know that this will stretch me in ways i never imagined. but do you know what i also know? that it will be SO worth it. because do you know why? because Jesus is worth it. 100%.
WOW. CRAZY.
yeah. so, this is my life at the moment. and i am asking you to join me in prayer as i prepare for the next couple months of my life. that my eyes would stay glued on Jesus. that i would press more INTO Him and not my own understanding. that i would continue to trust Him with my whole heart. that i would continue to follow Him step by step, wherever He may call me. and ultimately, that HE would be lifted higher and higher and become famous and known and glorified.
thank you for being a vital part of my life, every step of it. i would not be who i am today or where i am today without you. you have challenged me, encouraged me, spoken truth to me, supported me, loved me, held me, listened to me, been my biggest fan, laughed with me, cried with me, been on adventures with me, pointed me to Jesus. and for that, i am forever grateful.
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven...He has made everything beautiful in its time..." ~Ecclesiastes 3:1,11a
that's literally one of the only words that comes to mind for what God has been putting together these past couple months. along with..."wow"...and "crazy"...and "wow"...and...well, you get the idea.
so...let me fill you in.
ever since i was 10, i've wanted to go to Africa. i believed God was calling me to be a missionary. something about that continent intrigued me and i just couldn't wait to experience it. well...thanksgiving day of 2013, i got a text about going to South Africa on a missions trip. seriously? SIGN ME UP! and honestly, step by step of this big dream, God has been so faithful, calling me to walk by faith and not sight. He has provided and put little pieces together...and i am SO thankful and overwhelmed. and in a little over a month, i will be in Africa.
WOW.
ever since i was...well, i don't really remember, but it's been quite a while (!!!!), i've loved the thought of working at a camp. i never was a camp counselor (either because i had a job through the summer or because of a missions trip), but the stories i heard from others who experienced it drew me in and i kept it in the back of my mind and it resurrected often. i thought, "dang. hanging out with kids, encouraging them in their relationship with Jesus, spending time with others around my age going after the same thing? i could totally live with that!" and honestly, each time i went on a missions trip, i experienced a taste of that...and at times it felt insatiable. i felt SO in my element, like i was thriving and could feel no more joy than was already exploding in my heart. the community, encouragement, challenging conversations, responsibility and fulfillment each time was the best. so, i prayed. i prayed that God would put pieces together as He saw fit, whatever it looked like, and that i would follow, even if it was scary. i prayed that whatever He had in mind would be glorifying to Him first and foremost and that whatever it was He planned would be something where i could use the gifts, passions and talents He has given me. i prayed "not my will, but YOURS be done".
well, in February, my dad sits down and says, "can i make a suggestion to you, Molly?" i sigh, and pray for an open mind and heart to really hear what he has to say (because my dad is AWESOME and so wise!) and i say, "sure, Dad...whatcha got for me?" he says, "well, i was just thinking: do you think you could maybe have an idea, by May, of what you're going to do after you get back from South Africa?" i laugh. i couldn't help it! but i stopped and thought about it and said, "ya know, Dad, that's a really great idea. if God gives you any insight, could you let me know??" but i really did take that to heart and started praying that God would bring opportunities...and that i would be attentive to see what He had in mind. March came and went and about the first week of April i was talking with my mom about possibilities of what could happen after South Africa. she mentioned something about camp again...and i decided, "why not?" and started to look online. i needed something that would pay (because as much as i like to deny it, money is kinda important for some sort of survival) and a place that Jesus is lifted up. so i pulled up google and typed in "paid positions at christian camps"...and it took me to a page where there were a bunch of camps that listed job opportunities. score! and as i looked through, there were a couple that jumped out at me...and i applied. one in Arkansas...and one in Texas.
CRAZY.
so...then i prayed. a lot. and after i applied, other opportunities came up...but each one didn't work out, for one reason or another. the last week of April, i got an e-mail from the camp in Arkansas that said they weren't looking for any full time positions at this time, but thanks for your interest. and i said, "ok, God. this is totally up to You. Texas is the last place i'm waiting to hear from. i trust You." and a couple days later, i got an e-mail from the camp in Texas saying, "we've looked over your application and would like to interview you."
WOW.
so, the next week (MAY) they called and we talked...for 2 1/2 hours. it was so refreshing and encouraging and i hung up thanking God for even the opportunity to talk with them. they said they'd let me know at least by the end of the week or early the next week. "God, i trust You. if they offer me the position, thank You. if they don't, thank You. i know You know what's best for me. not my will, but YOUR will be done." it was really the first time in my life where i had complete peace, no matter which way it went. God is so great :) so...i waited...and waited...and waited...and finally, tuesday of the next week, i got a phone call from Texas. "hi, molly! i was just wondering if you've had a chance to think about the internship and was wondering if you'd like to join our team here in Texas for a year." silence. shock.
WOW.
"yes, i would!"...i said it almost without thinking. and there it was. i committed to going to texas...for a year...with people i didn't even know...not knowing if i'd even be able to come home at all...thinking about all the things i would miss out on here at home...counting the cost. and i cried. tears from every emotion possible. and i asked myself, "what did i just do? did i really do that?"...and it started to sink in. i told my mom...and dad...and they were excited...and cried, too. i told my brothers...and they were excited. and the next couple days were a blur of every emotion under the sun.
CRAZY.
but honestly, let me tell you...these past couple weeks God has ignited in me an excitement that is completely from Him! is it pretty much insanity that 2 weeks after i return from an unbelievable time in South Africa, i'm getting on a plane and heading down to Texas for a whole year? YES. is it kind of crazy that i won't be home for a year? ABSOLUTELY. am i still overwhelmed at all of this? 100%! but let me tell you this: God has orchestrated EVERY aspect and detail. i will be in a place of discipleship and community. i will be in a place that lifts Jesus higher. i will be in a place where i will be encouraged and challenged to live my life in the footsteps of Jesus. i know it will be hard at times. i know it will be uncomfortable. i know that this will stretch me in ways i never imagined. but do you know what i also know? that it will be SO worth it. because do you know why? because Jesus is worth it. 100%.
WOW. CRAZY.
yeah. so, this is my life at the moment. and i am asking you to join me in prayer as i prepare for the next couple months of my life. that my eyes would stay glued on Jesus. that i would press more INTO Him and not my own understanding. that i would continue to trust Him with my whole heart. that i would continue to follow Him step by step, wherever He may call me. and ultimately, that HE would be lifted higher and higher and become famous and known and glorified.
thank you for being a vital part of my life, every step of it. i would not be who i am today or where i am today without you. you have challenged me, encouraged me, spoken truth to me, supported me, loved me, held me, listened to me, been my biggest fan, laughed with me, cried with me, been on adventures with me, pointed me to Jesus. and for that, i am forever grateful.
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven...He has made everything beautiful in its time..." ~Ecclesiastes 3:1,11a
Thursday, May 15, 2014
an appeal for less of me
i hear in the news all of the calamity
i turn my eyes, so i don't have to see.
i don't like to admit all the pain around-
the world, my country-and even my town.
but if i close my eyes to the pain that is there,
and the only thing i give is a 5 second prayer-
and i have the Hope they so desperately need
and i lock it inside and throw away the key-
then what good is the Treasure i posses?
if i keep it all neat and don't enter the mess-
the mess of the homeless, the orphan, the widow.
the mess of the broken. oh, Jesus, Your steps to follow.
what if we've got being a Christian all wrong?
what if it's not just a book or a song?
what if it's living and eating and breathing
the words of Christ-and not just in a meeting.
our meetings where all of the things that we say
are nice and comfortable and seem to have sway-
but words are just words if they're not put into action.
they have no meaning-they are just a caption.
a caption of what we as Christians should do
under a "perfect picture" of how we're made new.
we say we're made new by the renewing of our minds-
but we live each day like we're completely blind.
our masquerades can only last for so long-
and i don't know about you-but that's wrong.
now, i'm not saying i have it all together.
no-i don't. i change like the weather.
but in my heart of hearts there's a deep longing
to not stand on the sidelines of pain and suffering.
there are Christians who die willingly for their faith
and here we are, always praying to be safe.
safe from accidents and sickness and peril.
protection as we walk the straight and narrow.
but what if our prayers turned from "safe" to "His glory"?
i wonder, then, what would be our story?
would we risk the unknown and take a leap in the dark?
because then we'd really have to trust Him with our whole heart?
we are called to live by faith and not sight.
so praying "whatever brings Him glory" just might-
might take us out of our comfortable lives
and take us across uncomfortable lines.
we might get our hands dirty and get in the thick
of poverty, hunger, the poor and the sick.
we might see children being sold as slaves,
trafficked in the night, their hearts ablaze-
ablaze with fear, trapped in lonely lives,
used over and over for a ticket price.
if we say amongst ourselves those things are wrong-
then what are we doing as we walk along?
do we see the need and just pass by-
having the means to help, but not batting an eye?
should people have a price tag? a family, no home?
should the orphan and widow always be alone?
what would it look like for you and for me
to look outside of ourselves and see
that life is not about how much money we make,
the car that we drive, or the size of our steak.
it's not about our status at work,
the clothes that we wear or if our house is in the 'burbs.
it's not about these "high-end" toys
that appeal to the eye and add to the noise-
the noise of what the world says is good
and that if you don't have it, you should.
but-what good is the stuff of this world
if you lose your soul and the midst of it all?
i appeal to myself and to those far and near-
that we come in close with a listening ear.
that we would take some time to stop and think
about what's really important with eternity on the brink.
maybe it means to re-prioritize
how we spend our time and money-or if we've been sucked in by lies.
i appeal to myself and to those far and near-
that we come in close with a listening ear.
what does it look like to do our part?
what is one step we can take to start?
to start living our lives intentionally,
to look beyond ourselves and really see
where God's heart is beating-how He's asking us to move.
what it looks like to join Him in living His love.
i appeal to myself and to those far and near-
that we come in close with a listening ear.
will we throw off the weight that so easily binds,
that holds us as slaves and clutters our minds?
will we let Christ come in and readily show
what it looks like to really live-and to let go?
let go of the "American Dream"
of safety and comfort and always being seen?
will we let Him replace the desire for more
of the world's recognition, accolades and keeping score-
with the heart of a servant, to live in the background,
boasting in nothing, but only, in Him, being found?
i appeal to myself and to those far and near-
that we come in close with a listening ear.
our thoughts, words and actions will reveal
to the world if Christ is real.
we do this in how we live our lives,
the choices we make, what we prize.
the reason we're here is to make Christ known,
to love this world-that His love is shown.
we are here to bear His Name,
to bring HIM all glory and fame.
i turn my eyes, so i don't have to see.
i don't like to admit all the pain around-
the world, my country-and even my town.
but if i close my eyes to the pain that is there,
and the only thing i give is a 5 second prayer-
and i have the Hope they so desperately need
and i lock it inside and throw away the key-
then what good is the Treasure i posses?
if i keep it all neat and don't enter the mess-
the mess of the homeless, the orphan, the widow.
the mess of the broken. oh, Jesus, Your steps to follow.
what if we've got being a Christian all wrong?
what if it's not just a book or a song?
what if it's living and eating and breathing
the words of Christ-and not just in a meeting.
our meetings where all of the things that we say
are nice and comfortable and seem to have sway-
but words are just words if they're not put into action.
they have no meaning-they are just a caption.
a caption of what we as Christians should do
under a "perfect picture" of how we're made new.
we say we're made new by the renewing of our minds-
but we live each day like we're completely blind.
our masquerades can only last for so long-
and i don't know about you-but that's wrong.
now, i'm not saying i have it all together.
no-i don't. i change like the weather.
but in my heart of hearts there's a deep longing
to not stand on the sidelines of pain and suffering.
there are Christians who die willingly for their faith
and here we are, always praying to be safe.
safe from accidents and sickness and peril.
protection as we walk the straight and narrow.
but what if our prayers turned from "safe" to "His glory"?
i wonder, then, what would be our story?
would we risk the unknown and take a leap in the dark?
because then we'd really have to trust Him with our whole heart?
we are called to live by faith and not sight.
so praying "whatever brings Him glory" just might-
might take us out of our comfortable lives
and take us across uncomfortable lines.
we might get our hands dirty and get in the thick
of poverty, hunger, the poor and the sick.
we might see children being sold as slaves,
trafficked in the night, their hearts ablaze-
ablaze with fear, trapped in lonely lives,
used over and over for a ticket price.
if we say amongst ourselves those things are wrong-
then what are we doing as we walk along?
do we see the need and just pass by-
having the means to help, but not batting an eye?
should people have a price tag? a family, no home?
should the orphan and widow always be alone?
what would it look like for you and for me
to look outside of ourselves and see
that life is not about how much money we make,
the car that we drive, or the size of our steak.
it's not about our status at work,
the clothes that we wear or if our house is in the 'burbs.
it's not about these "high-end" toys
that appeal to the eye and add to the noise-
the noise of what the world says is good
and that if you don't have it, you should.
but-what good is the stuff of this world
if you lose your soul and the midst of it all?
i appeal to myself and to those far and near-
that we come in close with a listening ear.
that we would take some time to stop and think
about what's really important with eternity on the brink.
maybe it means to re-prioritize
how we spend our time and money-or if we've been sucked in by lies.
i appeal to myself and to those far and near-
that we come in close with a listening ear.
what does it look like to do our part?
what is one step we can take to start?
to start living our lives intentionally,
to look beyond ourselves and really see
where God's heart is beating-how He's asking us to move.
what it looks like to join Him in living His love.
i appeal to myself and to those far and near-
that we come in close with a listening ear.
will we throw off the weight that so easily binds,
that holds us as slaves and clutters our minds?
will we let Christ come in and readily show
what it looks like to really live-and to let go?
let go of the "American Dream"
of safety and comfort and always being seen?
will we let Him replace the desire for more
of the world's recognition, accolades and keeping score-
with the heart of a servant, to live in the background,
boasting in nothing, but only, in Him, being found?
i appeal to myself and to those far and near-
that we come in close with a listening ear.
our thoughts, words and actions will reveal
to the world if Christ is real.
we do this in how we live our lives,
the choices we make, what we prize.
the reason we're here is to make Christ known,
to love this world-that His love is shown.
we are here to bear His Name,
to bring HIM all glory and fame.
Thursday, April 10, 2014
HE.RESTORES.MY.SOUL.
did you catch that?
read it again, friend. really read it.
He. Restores. My. Soul.
He. Restores. YOUR. Soul.
HE. the God of the universe, Creator of all things, the One who was, who is, and who is to come. the God who put the stars in place and calls each one by name. the God who holds all things together. the God who spoke everything into existence. the God who notices when even one sparrow falls to the ground. the God who knows how many hairs are on your head. the God who knit you together in your mother's womb. the God who created you, fearfully and wonderfully-piece by piece, detail by detail. the God who holds all your tears in a bottle. the God of all grace. the God of all comfort. the God of all wisdom. the God who is holy. the God who is just. the God who is constant. the God who never changes. the God who is love.
yes...HE.
RESTORES. refurbishes. reinstates. reestablishes. brings back into existence. puts back together. rebuilds. renovates. returns. rejuvenates. revitalizes. strengthens. builds up. mends. renews. rescues. heals. reintroduces. makes healthy. wins back. refreshes. reconstructs. redeems.
yes...HE. RESTORES.
YOUR. yes...YOU. the one who is reading this. the one who is struggling to hold on to hope. the one who has cried rivers of tears...maybe even oceans...and wonders if the tears will ever stop. the one who looks at the broken pieces and thinks they'll lay shattered on the floor forever...because who wants to take the time to pick up each one? and who would actually, really, truly care? YOU...the one who is putting one step in front of the other, hoping you'll make it through the rest of your day. the one who wonders if your story...your existence even matters because what do people want with someone who doesn't have it all together? the one who has children that are screaming and demanding of your time and you feel worn out and weak and at the end of your rope. the one who has experienced great loss...and heartache...and pain. the one who is searching for at least one glimmer of hope...one ray of light. yes, YOU...wherever you're at, whatever your story, experiencing joy or sorrow, high on the mountain or in the valley. the one who wonders if your prayers are even heard or if you even have a purpose. the one who questions your value and your worth. the one who finds your identity in your status or job or car or spouse or child or boyfriend or the clothes you wear or the kind of phone you have or how many friends you have or who your parents are or your grades or the sports your involved in.
yes...HE. RESTORES. YOUR.
SOUL. the core of who you are. heart. the deepest part of you that feels. the part of you that nobody else can see. where you hide your secrets. where you are completely honest with yourself. the part of you that wrestles with what choices to make. the part of you that holds the essence of who you are.
yes...HE. RESTORES. YOUR. SOUL.
how does He do that? to what does He restore it? WHY does He restore it?
He restores piece by piece. He takes what is broken and makes it new. He changes the core of you...the heart of you...the SOUL of you...because it is from there the rest of you comes forth. and if it is restored how HE restores (and not on our own and in our own strength and in our own way and in our own understanding)...that's when light starts to break through. that's when we really.start.living.
God restores our souls back to HIMSELF...because He is the only perfect and true fulfillment to everything we will ever need.
so...read it again, Beloved.
He. Restores. My. Soul.
again.
He. Restores. My. Soul.
believe it this time...hold on to this...and live in this:
HE. RESTORES. MY. SOUL.
Thursday, March 27, 2014
am i being too optimistic?
so it's the end of the day...and all i can do is smile.
not because my day was full of funny/happy things...but because it was full of, shall we say, "a series of unfortunate events"...as follows:
~losing $20
~spilling a smoothie in my car while looking for said $20
~almost forgetting my keys at the restaurant
~unknowingly dropping my phone in the parking lot at work...in the rain...and not realizing until i got home.
~being tired
so...why am i smiling?
because really, in the big scheme of things, all these things are SO trivial.
~maybe someone found the $20 that really needed it. and really...what was i gonna use it for anyway?
~the remainder of the smoothie was a reminder of the incredibly encouraging time i had at starbucks today with a dear friend i haven't seen for almost a year. plus...now my car smells like strawberries!
~the man who was my server was so gracious and half walk/ran after me to give me my keys...so kind he was!
~my big brother lives close to my work, so he drove over there (after just getting home from a long day at work) and found my phone...and it is now drying at his house. (how awesome is he?!??)
~being tired caused me to be in more constant conversation with God today...cuz i needed His strength to get through my day!
am i being too optimistic? some may think so. but i look at it this way:
if all i choose to look at is the negative in my day and dwell on all that went WRONG, i am totally missing out on the gifts that i DID receive throughout the day. and looking back on all of them, there was always good that came from it.
choosing thanks is a choice. choosing thanks changes perspective.
things could be SO much worse for me...on so many levels. plus, the bright spots in my day COMPLETELY outweigh the bummers.
it's like this. if you're outside and it's pitch dark and all the sudden you see a glimmer of light, where do your eyes go? to the light. and we go to the light because in the deepest parts of us, we're all aching and believing for one glimmer of hope.
we can choose to have that same perspective on life. in the midst of our darkest days...or the days when everything kinda seems to go downhill...we can choose to stay in the dark...or walk toward the light.
walk in the light...find the gifts...give thanks.
so, i end my day today smiling. smiling in joy because of the beauty of life and friendship and big brothers who take care of me and the freedom of not having my phone for a while and the reality that money is just temporary that i have a God who says i can come to Him when i am tired and weary and heavy laden and He will give me rest...true rest.
why are you smiling today?
*CHALLENGE*: make a "happy list" every day for 30 days. then drop me a note about the results...
not because my day was full of funny/happy things...but because it was full of, shall we say, "a series of unfortunate events"...as follows:
~losing $20
~spilling a smoothie in my car while looking for said $20
~almost forgetting my keys at the restaurant
~unknowingly dropping my phone in the parking lot at work...in the rain...and not realizing until i got home.
~being tired
so...why am i smiling?
because really, in the big scheme of things, all these things are SO trivial.
~maybe someone found the $20 that really needed it. and really...what was i gonna use it for anyway?
~the remainder of the smoothie was a reminder of the incredibly encouraging time i had at starbucks today with a dear friend i haven't seen for almost a year. plus...now my car smells like strawberries!
~the man who was my server was so gracious and half walk/ran after me to give me my keys...so kind he was!
~my big brother lives close to my work, so he drove over there (after just getting home from a long day at work) and found my phone...and it is now drying at his house. (how awesome is he?!??)
~being tired caused me to be in more constant conversation with God today...cuz i needed His strength to get through my day!
am i being too optimistic? some may think so. but i look at it this way:
if all i choose to look at is the negative in my day and dwell on all that went WRONG, i am totally missing out on the gifts that i DID receive throughout the day. and looking back on all of them, there was always good that came from it.
choosing thanks is a choice. choosing thanks changes perspective.
things could be SO much worse for me...on so many levels. plus, the bright spots in my day COMPLETELY outweigh the bummers.
it's like this. if you're outside and it's pitch dark and all the sudden you see a glimmer of light, where do your eyes go? to the light. and we go to the light because in the deepest parts of us, we're all aching and believing for one glimmer of hope.
we can choose to have that same perspective on life. in the midst of our darkest days...or the days when everything kinda seems to go downhill...we can choose to stay in the dark...or walk toward the light.
walk in the light...find the gifts...give thanks.
so, i end my day today smiling. smiling in joy because of the beauty of life and friendship and big brothers who take care of me and the freedom of not having my phone for a while and the reality that money is just temporary that i have a God who says i can come to Him when i am tired and weary and heavy laden and He will give me rest...true rest.
why are you smiling today?
*CHALLENGE*: make a "happy list" every day for 30 days. then drop me a note about the results...
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Love'sNotBlind
I was afraid of what I’d see.
Afraid of what HE would see…if I looked at him. If I really, truly looked at
him-his eyes. He would pass by and I would glance his direction, almost
pretending I didn’t see him standing there. But as hard as I tried to ignore
him, I couldn’t deny him. I felt his gaze; not harsh or uncomfortable-just
steady. Persistent. And I think that’s what got me-what caused me to feel unsettled.
He wanted to talk with me, spend time with me…just BE with me. Io wanted it
too-but I was afraid to face him-afraid he wouldn’t like who I was or what he
saw. What if I wasn’t all he expected me to be? What if I disappointed him?
And…what if he wasn’t who I thought him to be…and what if he was?
Somewhere deep in my heart, I knew
he was safe, fully worthy of my trust. Somewhere deep in my heart, I knew he
loved me. Unashamedly and ravishingly. And that’s what scared me. His love. I
had loved before and it left me disappointed. What if that happened again? I
expected his love and eyes to be the same…I WANTED them to be the same…as the
one I loved before, because it was safe. Something familiar. Yet at the same
time, I longed for something more. Something deeper.
After many weeks and months of
ignoring him, or gathering up the courage to talk to him and then backing out
(can I get a witness?!)-after hours of wondering, waiting, and wondering some
more what it would be like to talk with him-to actually look at him-his eyes-
and spend time with him-I decided to meet him. I wasn’t sure when, but I didn’t
want to miss the chance, even though he seemed to show up everywhere I went.
I woke up this morning to a knock
at the Door. It was early. I didn’t’ want to get up. Sleep beckoned me…but the
knowing was steady. Persistent. I decided to get up and open the Door. And who
else was standing there…but Him. He was here. In my Home…at my Door. Could this
really be happening? I wasn’t ready…prepared. My Home was messy. I was a mess.
And He wanted to come in? He stood there at my Door with a smile on His face,
patiently waiting for me to welcome Him in. He didn’t seem to mind the mess, He
just wanted to spend time together.
All of my fears came true. All but
one.
From the moment I opened the door,
I avoided looking into His eyes. I was still afraid to see-and be seen by Him.
His gaze seemed to penetrate right through me. Finally, I could take it no
longer. He sat there, looking at me-and I returned His gaze. I kept my eyes locked
on His, waiting for condemnation, disappointment and disgust to fill His eyes,
as He seemed to see the very depths of who I was. But instead, I saw Love.
Pure, true and perfect Love. Kindness. Gentleness. A beckoning to come closer,
draw nearer and experience what His love could do. Shame lifted. Fear fled.
Worry was swept away-washed over by Love.
After a while, He asked me for a
tour of my Home and somewhat reluctantly, I gave in. as we made our way
through, I showed Him the messes, broken pieces, and disheveledness of my home.
I honestly didn’t know how long He would want to stay after seeing this
disaster. But instead of walking out, for it being too much, He offered to stay
and clean up-mend the broken pieces and put things in order-the way He saw fit.
I was unsure at first, but seeing Him stand there with a gentle smile on His
face and knowing I wouldn’t have to do it alone, I told Him He could stay. He
was so patient with me as we picked up the broken pieces and I shared the
stories behind them. He asked questions and spoke in a way that almost made it
seem like He had experienced things like it before. Secrets, long buried under
piles of shame came to light as He gently removed the debris piece by piece. I
was so glad I didn’t have to face those alone, even though it pained me to face
the reality of the situations. And he seemed to relate, telling me stories of
when some if His closest friends hid secrets from Him.
Some things were painful to get rid
of-to let go of. Sometimes I fought with Him about it because I thought I knew
better. Patiently, He showed me a better way, explaining each step, but
sometimes leaving questions unanswered. Each time, His way worked out better
than I could have ever imagined.
It was nice to have Someone know
me-really, truly know me and not think that I was too much or not
enough. Not once did He mention leaving. Not once did He seem uncomfortable or
surprised by what He found. The more I got to know Him, the more I grew to love
Him-and receive the love he held out to me.
Through it all, this is what I’ve
learned:
His eyes are kind,
They see right through.
They pierce my heart,
Make all things new.
They see the depths,
Yet do not run.
His eyes are kind…
LOVE’S NOT BLIND.
Monday, March 24, 2014
Love Must Be...
"Love must be sincere." ~Romans 12:9
for some reason, this verse resonated in my heart all day today. it stayed there like saran wrap sticks to you and even when you try and get it off, it always comes back. that's what it was like today.
Love must be sincere.
as i thought about it, i realized that there are many days that i "love" people or put "love" into what i do and/or say...but i really am only doing it half-heartedly. i'm only half-listening...half-paying attention...half-sincere. i might be there in the physical...but mentally, i am a million miles away.
and i realized: that's not really love. you can say one thing, but your actions can tell a completely different story. people usually pick up pretty quickly if you're really interested in what they have to say.
or you might say something, but in your heart you feel/mean something completely different. like when something really great happens to one of your close friends and you say "Oh my goodness, i'm so excited for you!!" but on the inside you're cringing with jealousy.
Love is not jealous.
Love must be sincere.
further on in Romans 12, in verse 15, it says: "Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn."
this completely goes along with verse 9. as Christians-brothers and sisters in Christ, the Church-we are called to do life together. so that if someone falls, there will be someone there to pick them up. and if someone receives a reward or an accolade, they have people to come along side them and affirm them and rejoice with them. and because we all have different gifts and responsibilities in the Body of Christ, we should rejoice when one of our own receives a blessing! God's Kingdom is being advanced! if we choose to live in jealousy or comparison, we trap ourselves in self-pity, and we are essentially saying that we deserve a gift or reward or recognition from God. when in reality...all is grace. all is a gift.
on the flip side, if we choose to be blind to the needs that others have, whether it be physical, emotional or spiritual, and see ourselves as better than them because of our "status" or "level of spiritual maturity" or "too good" to associate with them...we trap ourselves in pride and miss out on the blessing of being an encouragement to someone who may desperately just need someone to listen to them. what they are going through is completely unique to them. we may never have gone through something like it, but that gives us no position to overlook those who are experiencing it. lots of times, those going through things feel alone...and all they're really looking for is someone to go through the trenches with them. we are called to bear one another's burdens. we weren't meant to go through this life alone.
"Do not be proud...Do not be conceited." ~Romans 12:16
we have the unique privilege to come around our brothers and sisters in Christ...and unbelievers...to be a picture of what love is like.
Love rejoices with those who rejoice.
Love mourns with those who mourn.
Love must be sincere.
i desire to be sincere in my love. and i guess the only way to really do that is to receive LOVE Himself...and ask Him to love through me and BE in me. i can't give what i don't have. when i have Him...i have true Love...and sincerity...and the desire to honor others above myself and meet them where they're at, whether that means rejoicing with them in a job promotion, beginning a relationship, getting engaged, getting married, having a baby, receiving praise from someone else...or just having a great day. sharing in someone's joy is a gift to them...and to the one rejoicing with them.
i don't want to be so caught up in my own agenda that i miss out on the opportunities to really, truly, sincerely love others...whatever that may look like.
i don't want to be so selfish and jealous, that i can't bring myself to share in the joy of someone else's achievements or blessings.
i don't want to be so prideful and arrogant that i overlook someone who is hurting or needs a listening ear.
i want to be so enraptured with Jesus and put on His love and exchange my heart for His so that the love that comes from me is really HIS Love.
and His Love...is sincere.
for some reason, this verse resonated in my heart all day today. it stayed there like saran wrap sticks to you and even when you try and get it off, it always comes back. that's what it was like today.
Love must be sincere.
as i thought about it, i realized that there are many days that i "love" people or put "love" into what i do and/or say...but i really am only doing it half-heartedly. i'm only half-listening...half-paying attention...half-sincere. i might be there in the physical...but mentally, i am a million miles away.
and i realized: that's not really love. you can say one thing, but your actions can tell a completely different story. people usually pick up pretty quickly if you're really interested in what they have to say.
or you might say something, but in your heart you feel/mean something completely different. like when something really great happens to one of your close friends and you say "Oh my goodness, i'm so excited for you!!" but on the inside you're cringing with jealousy.
Love is not jealous.
Love must be sincere.
further on in Romans 12, in verse 15, it says: "Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn."
this completely goes along with verse 9. as Christians-brothers and sisters in Christ, the Church-we are called to do life together. so that if someone falls, there will be someone there to pick them up. and if someone receives a reward or an accolade, they have people to come along side them and affirm them and rejoice with them. and because we all have different gifts and responsibilities in the Body of Christ, we should rejoice when one of our own receives a blessing! God's Kingdom is being advanced! if we choose to live in jealousy or comparison, we trap ourselves in self-pity, and we are essentially saying that we deserve a gift or reward or recognition from God. when in reality...all is grace. all is a gift.
on the flip side, if we choose to be blind to the needs that others have, whether it be physical, emotional or spiritual, and see ourselves as better than them because of our "status" or "level of spiritual maturity" or "too good" to associate with them...we trap ourselves in pride and miss out on the blessing of being an encouragement to someone who may desperately just need someone to listen to them. what they are going through is completely unique to them. we may never have gone through something like it, but that gives us no position to overlook those who are experiencing it. lots of times, those going through things feel alone...and all they're really looking for is someone to go through the trenches with them. we are called to bear one another's burdens. we weren't meant to go through this life alone.
"Do not be proud...Do not be conceited." ~Romans 12:16
we have the unique privilege to come around our brothers and sisters in Christ...and unbelievers...to be a picture of what love is like.
Love rejoices with those who rejoice.
Love mourns with those who mourn.
Love must be sincere.
i desire to be sincere in my love. and i guess the only way to really do that is to receive LOVE Himself...and ask Him to love through me and BE in me. i can't give what i don't have. when i have Him...i have true Love...and sincerity...and the desire to honor others above myself and meet them where they're at, whether that means rejoicing with them in a job promotion, beginning a relationship, getting engaged, getting married, having a baby, receiving praise from someone else...or just having a great day. sharing in someone's joy is a gift to them...and to the one rejoicing with them.
i don't want to be so caught up in my own agenda that i miss out on the opportunities to really, truly, sincerely love others...whatever that may look like.
i don't want to be so selfish and jealous, that i can't bring myself to share in the joy of someone else's achievements or blessings.
i don't want to be so prideful and arrogant that i overlook someone who is hurting or needs a listening ear.
i want to be so enraptured with Jesus and put on His love and exchange my heart for His so that the love that comes from me is really HIS Love.
and His Love...is sincere.
Monday, January 27, 2014
If You Don't Read Anything Else, Read This
sweet and beautiful girls reading this...
can we all just stop this whole "rating" thing i've seen? about the top "prettiest" girls and "cutest" boys? and even if you're not doing it on here...can we stop the rating going on in our heads?
we base our worth and our value so much on what people say about us on facebook, the media, at school, work, our family...this culture. we get so wrapped up in the drama of everything...and we get lost. SO LOST...because we are searching in all the wrong places for things that will only temporarily satisfy because they make us feel good at the moment...or take our mind off the hard stuff that goes on in our lives. you fill in the blank.
i wish i could just sit down with you and hear your story...and listen...and cry and laugh and speak life to your broken and searching heart. so...since i can't really do that...can you hear me out on this?
if you want to stop searching for value...if you want to stop wondering if you're worth anything. if you want to stop thinking that you need to be a certain height, weight, size, color...you fill in the blank...let me introduce you to Someone. Someone who sees exactly who you are, exactly where you are...ups and downs...good days and bad days. Someone you don't have to pretend around or feel like you have to dress up or impress. Someone who really truly listens to you and actually cares about what's going on in your life. Someone who isn't concerned about your outward appearance or isn't just all about taking advantage of you.
sweet girl...this might seem too good to be true. it might seem way far off and like a dream. what guy thinks that way anymore? is there really someone out there who will take you for you? is there really someone who cares about you...just because he cares about you...and wants the best for you without taking advantage of you?
yes. 100 times, YES!! this Guy's love is so real and SO genuine. He is patient and kind. He speaks truth...but always in love. He always has your best interest in mind...and He never gives up on you. He sees that you mess up...but He's always there to take you back. He sees you for who you really are, but He's not scared by it...and only wants for you to see yourself how HE sees you.
you see, beautiful one...the only way to realize and believe how much you are worth...and how much you are valued...is to believe in the One who gave His life for you...because He loved you. YOU. so much. His name is JESUS. and when you get a taste of that love? oh my, what a life changing thing it is! you were worth dying for. don't you think that makes you worth something? don't you see how much He loves you? and He so desires a relationship with you, dear one. and all you have to do is ask. ask Him to come in and help you see yourself the way He does. it might be scary and take some time at first...but when you start to believe that your worth and value come from HIM...and not this world...you can walk in confidence! because when you receive Jesus and He lives inside of you...you have One who will NEVER leave you and NEVER forsake you. how incredible to have a friend like that! Jesus isn't in it just for a short term fling...He's in this relationship business for FOREVER. a FOREVER LOVE. PERFECT love.
you will only begin to believe and understand how much you are loved and how valued you are when you begin a relationship with Jesus Christ. this is where it starts, beloved...in your heart. not in your appearance or how many friends you have or the size pants you wear. it starts in your heart...between you and Jesus.
He's ready...are you?
can we all just stop this whole "rating" thing i've seen? about the top "prettiest" girls and "cutest" boys? and even if you're not doing it on here...can we stop the rating going on in our heads?
we base our worth and our value so much on what people say about us on facebook, the media, at school, work, our family...this culture. we get so wrapped up in the drama of everything...and we get lost. SO LOST...because we are searching in all the wrong places for things that will only temporarily satisfy because they make us feel good at the moment...or take our mind off the hard stuff that goes on in our lives. you fill in the blank.
i wish i could just sit down with you and hear your story...and listen...and cry and laugh and speak life to your broken and searching heart. so...since i can't really do that...can you hear me out on this?
if you want to stop searching for value...if you want to stop wondering if you're worth anything. if you want to stop thinking that you need to be a certain height, weight, size, color...you fill in the blank...let me introduce you to Someone. Someone who sees exactly who you are, exactly where you are...ups and downs...good days and bad days. Someone you don't have to pretend around or feel like you have to dress up or impress. Someone who really truly listens to you and actually cares about what's going on in your life. Someone who isn't concerned about your outward appearance or isn't just all about taking advantage of you.
sweet girl...this might seem too good to be true. it might seem way far off and like a dream. what guy thinks that way anymore? is there really someone out there who will take you for you? is there really someone who cares about you...just because he cares about you...and wants the best for you without taking advantage of you?
yes. 100 times, YES!! this Guy's love is so real and SO genuine. He is patient and kind. He speaks truth...but always in love. He always has your best interest in mind...and He never gives up on you. He sees that you mess up...but He's always there to take you back. He sees you for who you really are, but He's not scared by it...and only wants for you to see yourself how HE sees you.
you see, beautiful one...the only way to realize and believe how much you are worth...and how much you are valued...is to believe in the One who gave His life for you...because He loved you. YOU. so much. His name is JESUS. and when you get a taste of that love? oh my, what a life changing thing it is! you were worth dying for. don't you think that makes you worth something? don't you see how much He loves you? and He so desires a relationship with you, dear one. and all you have to do is ask. ask Him to come in and help you see yourself the way He does. it might be scary and take some time at first...but when you start to believe that your worth and value come from HIM...and not this world...you can walk in confidence! because when you receive Jesus and He lives inside of you...you have One who will NEVER leave you and NEVER forsake you. how incredible to have a friend like that! Jesus isn't in it just for a short term fling...He's in this relationship business for FOREVER. a FOREVER LOVE. PERFECT love.
you will only begin to believe and understand how much you are loved and how valued you are when you begin a relationship with Jesus Christ. this is where it starts, beloved...in your heart. not in your appearance or how many friends you have or the size pants you wear. it starts in your heart...between you and Jesus.
He's ready...are you?
Monday, January 6, 2014
it's only just begun
it's 12:03 am...and i probably should've gone to bed a few hours ago.
but do you ever have those nights where there's so much and you feel like you have something to say, but you just aren't sure how? so you sit in front of a blank piece of paper, just wishing that it would write itself out somehow?
yep. pretty much where i'm at. so...here goes.
life these past few days have been so...blissful.
no, i'm not dating. but i have been rejoicing with some dear friends of mine who are getting married soon and we're talking about how their man proposed and what color the dresses will be and what kind of flowers she'll be holding and where the wedding will be and how she has to taste test the food and how invitations are coming out soon and how she picked out a photographer...and the list joyfully goes on and on.
but more than anything...Jesus has been sweeping me off my feet...and i love it. it's like we're dancing and He's spinning me around and covering me with little things that He knows i like, just because. and He's smiling at me and just looking at me with eyes full of love...and desire...and passion. and He's saying, "Arise, My darling, My Beautiful One, and come with Me." (Song of Songs 2:10)
how can you resist an invitation like that? seriously?
and i've just been finding His call irresistible. it's like He has a secret just for me...and He wants to share it with me. but the only way i can receive it is by answering His call with "Yes, Lord...I am coming!" (Psalm 27:8)
it's like He's taking me past all the familiar places...comfortable as they may be...and taking me higher, deeper and farther into His love. yes. that's where He's taking me.
He's taking me into His heart.
He's showing me how it beats. how it loves. how it sees. how it listens. how it touches. how it LIVES.
He is showing me that He is the treasure of the universe. when i have Him, i have everything.
this is what i was created for. a divine romance with Jesus. i was created to delight in Him and find my joy...my everything...in the fullness of who He is.
everything i could ever need, HE IS.
He is the Bread of Life.
He is the Living Water.
He is Comfort.
He is the Prince of Peace.
He is TRUTH.
He is LIFE.
He is the WAY.
He is my Provider.
He is my Sustainer.
He is my Strength.
He is my Shield.
He is my Glory.
He is the Lifter of my head.
He is the Keeper of my heart.
He is the One who holds all things together.
He is the One who will never leave nor forsake me.
He is the One who delights in me.
He is the One who sings songs over me.
He is the One who holds me close to His heart.
He is Love.
He is Joy.
He is Light.
He is More than enough.
He is Tender.
He is Patient.
He is Kind.
He is Gentle.
He is Firm.
He is Beautiful.
He is Holy.
He is Righteousness.
He is Justice.
He is the One who became sin...to become my Righteousness.
He is God.
He is the Lover of my soul.
what more could i ask for?
how amazing that I am His...and HE IS MINE??
sometimes i wonder if it's even real, this love. and then He paints a sunset in the sky, with the clouds wisping across the expanse and whispers, "Do you see that? I painted that just for you. Let's sit and enjoy it....just you and Me."
ok...can you get any more romantic than that?!
and honestly...how tender He is with my heart. there are no words. sometimes it's breaking...sometimes it's crying...sometimes it's laughing...sometimes it's just not sure what it is. but the one thing that is sure and constant are the Hands that hold it. so gentle. so careful. so. tender. He never forces Himself, but He is always close.
and all it takes for Him to come near is for Him to hear His name: JESUS.
oh, the many times i have called out His name. and every time...EVERY TIME, BELOVED...He has come close.
this beautiful, divine romance? it's for real. it's living, breathing for real.
it's so much more than i could have ever imagined.
and it's only just begun.
but do you ever have those nights where there's so much and you feel like you have something to say, but you just aren't sure how? so you sit in front of a blank piece of paper, just wishing that it would write itself out somehow?
yep. pretty much where i'm at. so...here goes.
life these past few days have been so...blissful.
no, i'm not dating. but i have been rejoicing with some dear friends of mine who are getting married soon and we're talking about how their man proposed and what color the dresses will be and what kind of flowers she'll be holding and where the wedding will be and how she has to taste test the food and how invitations are coming out soon and how she picked out a photographer...and the list joyfully goes on and on.
but more than anything...Jesus has been sweeping me off my feet...and i love it. it's like we're dancing and He's spinning me around and covering me with little things that He knows i like, just because. and He's smiling at me and just looking at me with eyes full of love...and desire...and passion. and He's saying, "Arise, My darling, My Beautiful One, and come with Me." (Song of Songs 2:10)
how can you resist an invitation like that? seriously?
and i've just been finding His call irresistible. it's like He has a secret just for me...and He wants to share it with me. but the only way i can receive it is by answering His call with "Yes, Lord...I am coming!" (Psalm 27:8)
it's like He's taking me past all the familiar places...comfortable as they may be...and taking me higher, deeper and farther into His love. yes. that's where He's taking me.
He's taking me into His heart.
He's showing me how it beats. how it loves. how it sees. how it listens. how it touches. how it LIVES.
He is showing me that He is the treasure of the universe. when i have Him, i have everything.
this is what i was created for. a divine romance with Jesus. i was created to delight in Him and find my joy...my everything...in the fullness of who He is.
everything i could ever need, HE IS.
He is the Bread of Life.
He is the Living Water.
He is Comfort.
He is the Prince of Peace.
He is TRUTH.
He is LIFE.
He is the WAY.
He is my Provider.
He is my Sustainer.
He is my Strength.
He is my Shield.
He is my Glory.
He is the Lifter of my head.
He is the Keeper of my heart.
He is the One who holds all things together.
He is the One who will never leave nor forsake me.
He is the One who delights in me.
He is the One who sings songs over me.
He is the One who holds me close to His heart.
He is Love.
He is Joy.
He is Light.
He is More than enough.
He is Tender.
He is Patient.
He is Kind.
He is Gentle.
He is Firm.
He is Beautiful.
He is Holy.
He is Righteousness.
He is Justice.
He is the One who became sin...to become my Righteousness.
He is God.
He is the Lover of my soul.
what more could i ask for?
how amazing that I am His...and HE IS MINE??
sometimes i wonder if it's even real, this love. and then He paints a sunset in the sky, with the clouds wisping across the expanse and whispers, "Do you see that? I painted that just for you. Let's sit and enjoy it....just you and Me."
ok...can you get any more romantic than that?!
and honestly...how tender He is with my heart. there are no words. sometimes it's breaking...sometimes it's crying...sometimes it's laughing...sometimes it's just not sure what it is. but the one thing that is sure and constant are the Hands that hold it. so gentle. so careful. so. tender. He never forces Himself, but He is always close.
and all it takes for Him to come near is for Him to hear His name: JESUS.
oh, the many times i have called out His name. and every time...EVERY TIME, BELOVED...He has come close.
this beautiful, divine romance? it's for real. it's living, breathing for real.
it's so much more than i could have ever imagined.
and it's only just begun.
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